Friday, December 31, 2010

Greetings, earthlings

Ah yes, December 31st. The day that everyone looks back to ponder their past, present and future.

More than ever, I feel that I need a place to gather my thoughts about what has (and hasn't) happened to me in my journey to become a mother. Although 2010 saw another year of sadness and disappointed, I am really looking forward to 2011.

2011. The year that I will either become pregnant through IVF, or the year that I know that I was somehow not meant to be a mother, and I will finally be able to move on with my life.

The latter fills me with dread, but I know in the bottom of my heart that I will be able to make peace with myself that I have tried all that I could. I've been shackled for three years to cycles, strips, doctors, ultrasounds, surgeries and blood work. This is the last year.

Regardless of what happens, I will come out on top, babe in hand or not.

This is my story of 2011.