Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Not a good day

I was thinking this morning that I was going to post something upbeat and/or funny, since it's been all doom and gloom so far.

Alas, today is not the day.

I had my followup appointment with my RE today. Not good news.

1. My Day 3 FSH was 11.0... It's never been that high! She would like to have seen it under 10.

2. My Anti-Mullerian Hormone test came back (this measures ovarian reserve)... and it's low. Low ovarian reserve.

She agrees with all of the findings that both my tubes are blocked, and recommends either clipping of my Fallopian tubes or Essure coils. The coils are inserted into the end of the Fallopian tubes, and the body naturally scars over it creating the closure. It takes 3 months for it to scar.

I've been reading about the coils since I got home, and I'm pretty sure I don't want them in my body. I've read stories where they failed to close the tubes after 6 months, where they've fallen out, or caused side effects and people have had to get them removed. Uh.. no thanks.

So it's a clipping we shall go. Next surgery date for my RE is April... she's going to see if one of her colleagues can do it sooner. Normally I'd wait for her but I think given my low reserve it's time to finally get this show on the road.

I was so upset after I left the doctor's office I almost threw up. I am at home now, 'working from home' because I didn't want to go to work and cry at my desk. As it was, I cried on the subway ride home.


  1. I'm sorry you are having a bad day today. I really hope you can get a date that is earlier than April. Sending you lots of hugs.

  2. I'm so sorry for the bad news and that you are not having a good day. Hopefully there will be a cancellation or she can get you in with another RE. Love on yourself a whole bunch today, okay? I am thinking of you and rooting for you crazy hard, lady!


  3. Hugs hugs and more hugs. Cry all you want to, it's totally okay. I love ya, lady... I wish I could take away some of your pain today.

    Is the hope that the clipping/coiling of the tubes will take out the blocked parts and open them up?

  4. I love you ladies :)

    Studies have shown that if women with blocked tubes are less likely to conceive with IVF then women with no blocked tubes. The thought is that blocked tubes leak nasty fluid into the uterus, impeding implantation and potentially harming the embryo.

    So the general consensus among the medical profession is to do a tubal ligation or remove the tubes to prevent this from happening.

    My RE doesn't want to do the full removal because she knows that each surgery I do reduces my ovarian reserve and increases more pelvic scarring. She just wants them to go in, clip the tubes, and out and leave everything else there (despite what they find).

    If I had a lot of money, I would try an IVF without surgery, but alas, I think I can only afford two IVF cycles so I don't want to use one of those for a 'just to see' thing!

  5. I'm so sorry for the news today. I started tearing up too :( Sending you lots of positive thoughts and a huge HUG.

    LK @ FBL

  6. Please know that we're all thinking of you. Lots of luck and wishes that you get an earlier date. Hugs and support,

  7. *hugs*, my thoughts are with you. I hope things start going your way.

  8. hi back from my blog (thanks for the comment!) and ICLW--I too have high FSH and DOR (as you might have read). Suck. I've never heard of the wheatgrass idea though...very interesting. Hoping to read soon you got a much earlier surgery date!